Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Tonight is Senior Night here for Tusculum College Men's Soccer. We play vs. Carson Newman, our rivals at 7:00 p.m. Senior Night brings mixed emotions. It is almost surreal in that I sort of didn't expect it to ever come. To know that one chapter of your life is almost done, even when you prolong your collegiate career like I did is a weird feeling. This is coupled by the fact that I am coming off of a pulled quad injury too early and will not be able to provide much help for my team tonight... It is sort of bittersweet.

I say that, but I realize that I am being selfish. I realize that God's timing is always better than that of my own. Looking at it, I really want to play, but part of my motivation is playing for the praises of men. It is great to be recognized, but I am realizing that there is much more to life than anything that men can do. I feel that I want to instead play and live for the recognition of my Lord. This is what truly matters to me. So when I look at this from that perspective, it is hard to get mad or upset about the circumstances. I must remember that God has reasons for things, like He did this summer, and I only saw them in hindsight... but, when I do... they make perfect sense. So I've decided, with the help of my dad, that we must just worry about controlling the controllables and let God take care of the rest. So, Lord, take control. Show me the way that You want.

Lifesong - Casting Crowns

May the words I say
and the actions I do
make my lifesong sing
bring a smile to You.
Let my lifesong sing to You!
Let my lifesong sing to You!
I want to sign Your name at the end of this day
knowing that my heart was true.
Let my lifesong sing to You!

Today's Reading:

Acts 4-5